SIA a.k.a She is Amazing

I'm fighting a battle
I'm fighting my shadow
Herd fears like they're cattle
I'm fighting a battle, yeah
I'm fighting my ego
Lost youth where did we go wrong
I'm fighting for me though
I'm lighting the long way home

Oh the past it haunted me
Oh the past it wanted me dead
Oh the past tormented me
Oh the past it wanted me dead
Oh the past it haunted me
Oh the past it wanted me dead
Oh the past tormented me
But the battle was lost
'Cause I'm still here

Potongan lagu SIA, "I am still here" rasa-rasanya tepat menutup tahun 2018 yang begitu banyak cobaan, rintangan, derai air mata dalam kesunyian. Sampai untuk bernafas pun, sesak. 

My personal life, my business, my kids, my financial etc. It is hard to breathe... 

Setiap mendengar lagunya di mobil, selalu hening. Sometimes, air mata dan suasana sendu menyelimuti. Terdiam, terbantu karena alat musiknya up beat. Gak kebayang kalo selow-selow pake piano dan biola. Pastinya lebih sadis daripada lagunya too good at goodbye nya sam smith. 

I'm winning the war now
I'm winning it all now
Watch tears while they fall down
I'm winning the war now
I win against ego
Cast light on the shadow's long
I'm winning from ego
I'm lighting the long way home

Sampai pada bait ini, memori-memori lama pun seraya terpanggil kembali. Setelah mengembara dan hinggap di beberapa hati, pada akhirnya selalu kembali padamu. Always comeback to You, sang pemilik hati. 

Never be spoken, always silence, only romance lingers in my head. And the memories wont left behind. Too much years we've been together, but lot more spent years to overcome. And you are always with me. the Unseen, the untouchable, the never-forgotten You. 

And .. I am still here. Standing Still. Fighting my ego, to win the war.